OC RULZ

Annyong haseyo?

2009-03-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

I want to have a korean boyfriend,can?

I dont care

2009-02-21T09:43:00.000+08:00

Im in the state where i dont care,cant be bothered,cant give a shit to watever happenin ard me.Its all bout me.I care for myself.No point of being considerate to others when the others dont dont do anything and the finger will always point at me.

Im the only one dats get the blame.Im the only one who did all the wrong things in the world and the rest are like the angels who did nothing wrong.

So im sick and tired of tryin to be the best one in here.Since others are the black sheep...mayb i will try to be one too.

Since u always say n wishes dat ive been following someone footsteps..might as well i do it.So the sayin be careful of wat u wish for..is actually true.

So im tryin to make your wish come true.

Japan 09.

2009-02-13T05:25:00.000+08:00

4 days away to the land of the rising sun.Cold indeed.Where the temp was ard 11 degrees to 6 degrees.Harajuku,Shibuya,Shinjuku,Disneyland.A great experience and i understand the meanin of Lost in Translation.hahahahahaha.

Everywhere in Japanese.Even Disneyland.THey speak Japanese!But everywhere is so expensive but i noe.I will be back wif more vengeance the next time ard.

Next time ard...Hello shoppin!

5 days of bliss.

2009-02-08T16:08:00.000+08:00

To the land of rising sun...i shall go!

Going.

2009-02-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

2 more days to go!!!!

Yeay!!!!!!

Hana Kimi Japan.

2009-01-31T18:41:00.000+08:00

This is the casts of Hana Kimi Japan.Its funnier than the Taiwan version.Especially Nakatsu Shichi played by Toma Ikuta.Kawaii!So currently the ost of the show is stuck in my head.

So i noe when im feelin stress,i juz watch this show and laugh my stress away!

1 1/2 wks to go!!!

CnY

2009-01-26T19:02:00.000+08:00

Werkin on cny?

Double pay

shake leg

Apparently there's nothin much to at werk.

Best!gaji buta.

2 more wks to go!

Suci

2008-12-31T00:24:00.000+08:00

The last time i went gaga over indonesia sinetron was Ikhlas.Prolly becoz of the lead actor Primus hahahaha.

And now..another sinetron caught my eyes.Same reason.Because of the actor.Bayu Kusumanegara dats the guy on the right.hahaha..The name might be a bit obit ah but still..hes gdlookin in my book.hahaha or maybe i haf a thing wif guys wif an accent.hahahah.Story line the same,Typical indonesian plot ah.Mak mentua jahat.Try to break up the couple yada yada yada.In the end true love conquers it all.At least there's an happy ending to the story.

So the moral of the story is i watch the show becoz of the gdlookin casts.hahahaha

Birthday!

2008-12-15T05:59:00.000+08:00

This lil girl is all grown up.Turnin 6 yrs old.And in few wks times,she will be entering a real sch.Aiyah...kids grow faster than u expected it.

Happy Birthday Israh Humairah!!!

Happy bday muhammad hasri bin othman!

2008-12-02T19:21:00.000+08:00

Dear Brother,

Happy 29th Bday!May this yr be filled wif joy n happiness!and and and my wish for u is..

A lil brother for israh humairah can?

hahahah..

H.A.P.P.Y.B.D.A.Y .G.E.M.U.K!

1230pm-1030pm

2008-11-04T06:11:00.000+08:00

I survived the shift!!aaaarrgghhhh...its all the matter of gettin used to it.hahahaha..

Everyone have been complaining.When reached the werk plc at 1215pm,all were like ehhh...ni time aku blum bgn tido lagi siak...then at 3pm...ni time aku baru bgn tido...at 415..ni time aku baru tahan taxi nak gi keje/aku baru turun lift/aku baru sampai mrt station.458pm..everyone log in!!

Adjusting to new shift is weird.But yesterday amazinly time did passes so fast even tho i keep counting down the hrs n mins to go home.hahahahaha..The last 15 mins break is at 830pm...so by the time im done wif the 15 mins is at 845pm.Its an hr plus to go before goin home.

Oh well....one more day before the 3 days off...yipeeeeeeee!!!!

belated bday present

2008-11-02T07:26:00.000+08:00

My lil cousins gave me a 500 pieces puzzle for my bday present.The qns is..bila nak buat eh??hahahah...my so called holiday scrapbook has been pending for almost a yr.NExt sun will be exactly a yr me n my friends went for our LAX holiday n i haf only done 1 album for it.Haf another 2 more albums to go which buat habuk.hahahahaha..

Blame it on the shift werk.hahahahahaha..

Oh well...till then the memories....

SOS!

2008-10-14T23:36:00.000+08:00

Come 13th nov,I will partayyying wif..............................

story of my life

2008-10-14T11:09:00.000+08:00

I tried not to be UNFAITHFUL but its so hard not to CRY.Always try to BREAK IT OFF

Sungguh gerek sekali!

2008-10-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

wah wah wah!!!4 days off!!!!!!shiok!!!hahahahaha

Anyways,gd frenz of mine at werk is leaving soon.She's the 1st one i made frenz wif when started the shift.Didnt expect we can hit it off dat well...She's like a lil sis.Being the youngest and all..its sad to see her go.boo hoo!!and ohh...she's the one who started callin me wattz at werk.hah.and now everyone at werk calls me dat.See...wati dah tukar wattz..nama glam kat keje!muahahahahaha

But im sure she will find a better job out there or maybe further her study to a better job in the future.

I wish her all the best for her future.And thank god for the modern technology,we can still keep in touch.

Selamat hari raya!!

2008-09-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

Selamat hari raya semua!!!

Happy children's day all!!

And finally....Happy 27th bday to me!

Yes.I turned 27 today.Gosh!TIme passes so fast eh...Without u realising it...soon u will be enterin the number 3.haahahah

All i hope is gd health,more travelling.hahaahh..and yess...perhaps settling down???

MUahahahahahahaahahaahahahahh...

Salam lebaran!

Happy Birthday!!!

2008-09-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

Its someone bday today...no..make it 2..

Happy Birthday zarina and marlin!!

Born 2 yrs apart but hey...its still their bday!!!

The last time i mentioned their age..i got hell from them..hahaha..so now..i will not mentioned any of it.hahahaha..2 more days to raya...time passes so fast without u realising it.

H.A.P.P.Y.B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y.!

got my advance bday gift!

2008-09-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

As per my horoscope yesterday,i finally got green light n can rest easy and breathe a sigh of relief.

I tink its right coz i received my letter of confirmation yesterday!!alhamdullillah!

All the worries and anxiousness all gone.I was afraid dat i will get another 3 mths extension but alhamdullillah.everything went well.:)

After sloggin for the past 6 mths,finally i got the result.Now im entitled to leave.hahaha..so can start plannin for my holiday.i dont wanna waste my FOC tkt.hahahahah

So there u go...advance bday present from NWA.

From new hire to incumbent.Welcome to the NWA! heh

Today

2008-09-22T09:55:00.000+08:00

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)[?]

The Bottom Line

Today you will finally get the green light! Rest easy and breathe a sigh of relief.

In Detail

Looks like that worry you had was just a false alarm -- so today you will finally get the green light! So rest easy and breath a deep sigh of relief -- you made it! You won't be hearing any more from that unsavory person (at least not for a while). You'll experience a huge and wonderful release of tension today, which will put a smile on your face and help you see your life in a much more positive way. Things are going to be okay after all! Use the afternoon to celebrate.

2nd wk of ramadhan

2008-09-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

Wow!!its already been 2 wks of ramadhan.Time passes dat fast without u realising it.2 more wks to go before we will be celebrating aidilfitri and of coz ..yours truly will be turnin 2.7.Arrghh!

27 yrs old eh...dah tua anak encik othman dan cik ashmah.Bleeukk!

Anyways,its almost 230am and i cant sleep.Wats new about dat?hahahah...eversince started this afternoon shift,my sleep has been disrupted.and my afternoon is the new morning.Woke up juz in time to go to werk.Blissful yeah...

Met up wif sarah and gang.Buka puasa dirumah mak mentua marlina di woodlands.Took 168 from bedok all the way to woodlands interchange.Reached the plc almost 8.All thanks to traffic jam at TPE caused by an accident.Her mum in law cooked mee siam,made agar2 gudil and honeydew sago which is so damn nice.and her mum in law even tapau us agar2 gudil.So nice of her.

And yesterday went to ikea wif fauziah n zarina.Bought few photo frames.Thank god i didnt buy carpet from Ikea coz after buka,we went to geylang and saw variety of carpets and cheaper than the one i wanna get at ikea.Went to survey baju kurung.Saw few.Let's juz wait for payday b4 i made my decision.heh.

finally..

2008-09-08T09:37:00.000+08:00

Ive not taken any mc eversince starting this new job,and finally..my body succumb and im on one day mc.All hail to ms influenza.The scratchy throat,the blocked nose,the minah rock voice..oh yeah...Im sick.

The more i shld not take any mc becoz soon it will be my 180 days appraisal.I juz done wif my 120 days appraisal a long overdue which was supposed to be in july but alhamdullillah.Everything is goin on well.:)

My error rate drops tremendously.Yeay!!Few more wks to go.No...not to my bday or hari raya but my confirmation wif Northwest airlines.From new hire to incumbent.Dats the day i will be lookin forward to. :)

2nd day of ramadhan

2008-09-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

Like finallyy....i bought my external hard disk.Its been too long.hahahaha..Keep puttin it off coz apparently i rather spend the cash on something else.The lappie keep hangin becoz of too many photos i stored inside.Ard 4k plus photos.N i never develop some of the pics.All thanks to technology where memory cards serves its purpose.heh.

This yr raya will be exciting coz new ppl will be joinin in the festive season.4 babies will be making their debutant collection this yr.My cousins and my friends.My cousin Mas who gave birth 3 mths ago,another cousin Fareed whose wife will be giving birth any time soon,Kak nurul who gave birth a mth ago and rai who has juz given birth to a baby boy yesterday morning.Ohh..i feel so old!!and not forgettin im already at dat late twenties tag.bugger!

Anyways,hope its not too late to wish selamat berpuasa! and time check?320am..

Selamat Bersahur!!! *wink*

Something freaky!

2008-08-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

Something freaky happened at werk.I went to toilet wif emma after the dinner break.Its 5 mins after 11pm.On the way back to the office,i tot i saw someone is lurkin behind the pillar.LIke playin hide n seek .So i asked emma is someone der?Apparently emma saw it but she juz keep quiet.When i asked her bout it,she was like..jgn sebut ah..I was like oh ok.Quickly went inside n started walkin fast to our table.TOld dillah bout it and according to her,she did saw something while back ago.ASked the senior staffs,thanks to them for confirming wat we saw.

I noe the plc im werkin at is quite a "dirty" .Few of my team mates did experienced n saw it.Dat was my first..No actually 2nd.There's one time i was juz lookin at the cctv coz the floor im werkin at have cameras all over.I tot i saw something floating.A white figure.Told dillah bout it n she said maybe its the lift.I still dont feel satisfied so i looked at the cctv again...Told dillah the lifts are so far away n look small..the thing i saw was so near to the pillar n again dillah said its the lift.So i let it go n tried not to think of it even tho i really wanna find out .hahahaha...BUt like ppl said,jgn mengharap nak tgk nanti betul2 muncul.But seriously,i didnt expect it.Naik bulu roma sekejap.

Still 2 more days to go before the next 2 off days...and another wk to the land of rising sun!

Ohaiyo!

Never Back Down

2008-08-11T11:45:00.000+08:00

I juz finish watchin Never Back down starrin Sean Faris n Cam Gigandet(Volchok of the OC).I dont noe whether its the fighting or shirtless guys wif great abs dats made me glued to my laptop but either way the movie is juz HOT!hahahahaha...

And so the story goes like this,

At his new high school, a rebellious teen Jake Tyler is lured into an ultimate underground fighting club in a Backyard Fight, where he finds a mentor in a mixed martial arts veteran. After receiving threats to the safety of his friends and family, Jake seeks the mentoring of a veteran fighter, to train his mind and body for one final no-holds-barred elimination fight with his unrelenting personal nemesis and local martial arts champion Ryan McCarthy.

Oh damn...im late!!gotta get ready to go to werk.

Team 19.

2008-07-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

This is my team 19 before we all disperse into different teams n shifts.Full gear.United.But now..team 19 has grown from dat much to god noes how many left surviving.

Received heartfelt msg from Kabir.One of my team mates from team 19.

"Hi sisters n bros of team 19,juz wanna express some upset feelings when seing one by one our mates go.I dont understand why actually but wat i noe ,those who go doesnt have the fighting spirit.If we could excel on papers,im sure we could succeed in the job given.Im not trying to be lame but its just the sad thoughts when watching one by one of the once proud 'red-green-blue' spirits go.To all those whos still "fighting",i wish you all the best.Dont disappoint our trainers.They've put all their efforts to teach us n im pretty sire dat dey will be proud of our achievements.Pls help me spread this msg to our fellow 19ers.Thanks!Kabir"

Nobody says dat everything is gonna be easy.Be in sch or werk or housewife,each one of them haf their own difficulty.When u first enter primary one,u haf to adjust wif the surrounding.New faces,new rules,no mum,no dad by your side.Same goes when u enter werk force,new faces,new rules,no friends by your side.I admit i almost wanna give up on this job becoz of the mistakes i make.Im afraid dat if i do wrong i will be terminated.

But then i realised,if i dont make a mistake,i can never learn.No matter how perfectionist u r,ure bound to make mistake whether u like it or not.

I tried my very best NOT to make any mistakes.I checked all my werk properly even to the extend of spending at least 15 mins in understanding the reservation.Even wif all the lil details i take in taking care of my werk,i still make big mistake.Overlooking stuff,giving pax free upgrade even tho they are not entitled to it.Im screwed!Oh well....indeed im screwed but im thankful for the support and help i get from my team mates.They helped me to settle the problem.So thank u to them.I will try my very best.Like wat kabir,i will not want to disappoint my trainers.They sacrificed their time in training us and the least we can do is acknowledge their help by doin a better job.

So from a class of 30 ppl in team 19,22 still up n runnin...and we shall see who is the next one.

wateva lah!

2008-06-13T09:41:00.000+08:00

Its funny how human beings acts.tanya salah.tak tanya salah.bila error dtg,salahkan kita pasal tak check.bila kita nak doubly check,ckp,i cant believed ure askin stupid qns!

manusia manusia!

Dreams

2008-06-07T09:19:00.000+08:00

I had strangest dream yesterday.I dreamt i was hangin out wif Simple Plan n we were supposed to go somewhere in Ontario.Yeah..Ontario in Canada but somehow the place we are headin to looks freakin familiar.Its somewhere in Chai Chee.The old Singapore Post der.N i keep telling them its far to get to where they wanna go.They asked ard and the ppl was like ohhh...its near.Its inside der.N i swear they were pointing towards the Frankel/Siglap direction.I was like ok..this is weird.We were walkin towards the traffic light when i looked at my watch and it was 3 pm and i told them i gotta go coz i haf to get ready to go to werk.We hugged and says our gdbye and pooffff...Im awake.

I guess werkin shift started making me delirious.Hahahahaha....I feel dat everyday is a monday becoz im werkin on the wkend.N my off days on the wkdays where my friends are werkin office hours n im werkin odd shift.5pm-3am.SO my day starts after 5 pm even on my off day becoz dats when my friends finish their work.I lost touch wif the days.Not to mentioned the stress n pressure at werk.Where we haf to hit a certain target n make LESS mistakes possible.All this can affect your werk performance n probation.

Oh well.....im werkin today and tomorrow n monday is my off day.Will be gettin sat n sun off next wk....yohaaaaaaaaa!!the 1st wkend off of the mth!

the starting

2008-05-25T11:33:00.000+08:00

In half n hr i will be leaving for work.My first shift and its falls on sun but.....weds n tues will be my off n rest day respectively.yessssssssssssssssss!!!!

So looking forward for that.Oh well...gotta get ready now.

I graduated!

2008-05-23T18:43:00.000+08:00

Today is the end of my training and ive graduated wif the rest of team 19 and will start my afternoon shift this sun.Yessss...its time to say hello again to 500pm-300am shift!

Team 19,You will be missed!!!

The final countdown.

2008-05-17T07:37:00.000+08:00

Im done wif the final assessment and overall i made it.Alhamdullillah.The scary part will be when we go on the floor and doin the job by ourselves and havin a quota to hit.Dats surely put pressure on me.Oh well....

Hopefully i will be in the same team as my beloved kakis.Next fri will be the graduation and from team 19,we will be disperse to separate teams.

And next sun will the begining of new era.Hello night gdbye day!

2+2=4

2008-05-08T18:48:00.000+08:00

Pejam celik pejam celik..im finishin my class training and come next wk i will doin my OJT.(on job training). 2 wks of OJT and then i will be starting my shift.And that's where the real shit happens.Things r different now compared to the 1st 2 wks of lessons.Im sure i will miss team 19 when im starting my shift.

Happy bday syam!

2008-04-21T18:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my gd friend's bday but alas....he's in Australia for 3 mths..enjoy sakan lah kau syam!hahaahha

Here i am in Spore...wishing u a very Happy 28th bday!!!!!

But i doubt he will be reading this coz he's not in my contact.hahahahaha.

Ok..dats a bit tad lame.Anyhoosss...this fri will be the 1st team dinner together.Celebrating our first pay day with Ms Northwest herself.Who soon will be known as Mr Delta .hahahahahah.

Gettin hype up for the upcoming assessment.Alhamdullillah.Been maintaining the 90% range.hehehe..Why didnt i put in much effort back in sch then??hmmmmmmm.....

Oh well...4 more wks to go before the training ends.A bit sad coz we will all be separated to diff teams after training over.

My baby

2008-04-18T18:20:00.000+08:00

I love my new baby!!

Ive been itouched!

2008-04-17T19:29:00.000+08:00

who got the itouch now?????/me me me!!!!!

way to go team 19!

2008-04-02T10:00:00.000+08:00

I did my assessment on mon and guess who scored more than 80%??

me!me!*jumpin up and down*

Actually almost the whole class scored more than 90%.ahahz!With 5 ppl scored full marks.woo hoo!!Even tho its juz the 1st assessment,i tink our class did the best.hehehee.

So this fri the 2nd assessment.Let us achieve that 90 % mark!

way to go team 19!!!

2008-03-31T23:48:00.000+08:00

survivor!

2008-03-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

I survived my 1st wk!!!hahahaha...Mon will be my assessment and we will doing it at the real work area.Not in the training room.Hearing it is enuff to makes me shiver.Im scared i will not perform well.Need to maintain 80%.

survivor

2008-03-29T13:13:00.000+08:00

ching a ling

2008-03-26T09:08:00.000+08:00

I tink im gettin a hang to the 530pm-230am shift.hahaha..Its the best shift but of coz you dont haf social life.WHile most of my friends are back from werk,here i am starting my werk at 530pm.2nd day was great.Gettin to noe my batch mates a lil better.and i moved from the 2nd row to the 3rd row.and 3rd row are the kecoh row.hhahahha.So yeah...hopefully i can concentrate more than laugh out a lot.Maybe a wk or two ..i will break out from my shell.hahahah.ALso been hangin out with puspa,priya,min and shikin.My new friends in class.Been goin to dinner break with them,the 10 mins break.So we were like the 20th century of the Spice girls.muahahahahaha.Maybe i shld take pics of my batch mates.Hopefully we will be in the same team after we r done wif the training.Oh well..

1st day.

2008-03-25T06:58:00.000+08:00

1st day of training was fun.hahaha..my class seems to be the wackiest bunch.But then,its only 1st day..still haf 8 more wks.hehehe...I made few friends.Oh well...im not the one who started it.hahahah.THey introduced themselves and things started rolling from there.And surprise surprise one of the guys in the class was my junior in secondary sch.SO yeah...at least there's someone familiar in there.Learn bout world map.which is kinda interesting.the places the company flies to.and the best part we can actually use our FOC tix the 1st day we started werkin BUT our leave is only cnfrmed afer 6 mths werking.so yeah..pros and cons.hahahah.u can travel but u haf no leave.so yeah...i haf to wait for 6 mths.The notes..its bloody thick!While im familiar wif some of the words/codes,new things i haf yet to familiar with.the booking and the available flts.I still haf a lot to learn.WErking afternoon shift till they saaid so.So 8 wks afternoon.But hey..at least im off over the wkend.

The new era.

2008-03-23T18:12:00.000+08:00

When Im gone.

2008-03-18T16:32:00.000+08:00

My soundtrack.

2008-03-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

150308

2008-03-15T08:07:00.000+08:00

Today is my last sat werking at Nippon Express.

All the memories.All the ppl.Will be missed dearly.

I will miss having breakfast wif kak nan.The 830am breakfast call.

oh well...5 more days to the very last.

The begining is the begining.

2008-03-13T04:28:00.000+08:00

So i took the letter of offer yesterday.So surreal.N i haf a wk to go before im officially out from the old company.

Come 24th,i will start with the new job.Everything will be new.Making new friends(which i dreaded most) but i will try.New faces.New plc.New management.New colleagues.

2 more days!!!

2008-03-05T08:27:00.000+08:00

2 more days to the KL trip.Here we come to enjoy the day!

Hopefully no one spoils the fun.heh.

Watched Meet the Spartans wif the ladies yesterday.Zarina's laughter rules!!!hahaha..

15 and counting.yohaaaa!!!

2 days with the bad morning!

2008-03-04T03:20:00.000+08:00

ok.So yesterday morning,there's this pakcik shouted at me early in da morning.Like wth?!I can feel my face burning up and my blood all flow up to my head.He really make my whole morning sucky man!Not mentioning someone took mc on monday morning.Wahhhh!!!I was in the bad mood for dat half a day.I already blacklisted dat pakcik!If he comes to collect the docs,i will give him the murderer look.Suka2 aper pagi2 buta nak tinggikan suara!?

And this morning,i got my face slammed by the door bus.Thanks ah uncle!U cannot differenciate between the front door and back door buttons eh?I was about to go up the steps when the door juz closed!Luckily i never get my foot stuck at the door and also luckily the bus driver apologised.If not,i will be in foul mood the whole day.

But nvm,happy happy thought!16 more days!!

Anyways,u looked cute when u ran after the bus.hehehehe.*wink*

01 march 2001 - 01 march 2008.

2008-03-01T03:55:00.000+08:00

Today mark 7 yrs service in my current company and come 20th march 2008,i bid adieu to this plc forever.

This is the plc where i grow up.Where everyone are like family.Where i noe there's someone i can count on to.Where someone i can ask help for.

Im gonna miss the place,the ppl.

Oh well...life jus have to go on.

Finally here!!

2008-02-28T14:44:00.000+08:00

My AE(American Eagle) stuffs finally here!!!like a mth..duh..took them long to shipped out the stuffs.

But its here so im happy.hehehhehe.

So now im a happy happy lady.heh.

Fly.

2008-02-25T08:43:00.000+08:00

Any moment, everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute, all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday

Can you hear calling
Can you feel it in your soul
Can you trust this longing
And take control

[CHORUS:]
Fly, open up the part
Of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forgot about the reasons why you can't enlight
And start to try
Cause it's your time, time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something, when there's nothing left
And the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear calling
Can you feel it in your soul
Can you trust this longing
And take control

[REPEAT CHORUS]

And when your down and alone
Just wanna run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know your better than anyone else

Any moment, everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute, all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

[REPEAT CHORUS]

Fly, forgot about the reasons why you can't enlight
And start to try
Cause it's your time, time to fly

Any moment, everything can change

All i can say this song sums up how i feel. :)

Thursday

2008-02-21T03:20:00.000+08:00

Today is the day.hahaha..

To give the letter and break the news to that someone.Wonder she gonna receive the news??will she accept wif open arms or juz one of her negative shit?

Oh well....my friends r dying to noe her reaction when i drop the bombshell.hahahahah

I will update again aite??

wednesday.

2008-02-20T11:21:00.000+08:00

There's someone out there who makes me want to go to werk everyday.hahahahaha

So thank u!

Tuesday.

2008-02-19T03:35:00.000+08:00

Tuesday usually slack.seriously!i reached werk ard 802am..and by 815am..im done wif my data entry.

so here i am tryin to update my blog.hahaha...

and oh yeah...i did see u today!happy happy!!

monday!

2008-02-18T09:01:00.000+08:00

MOnday...*yawn yawn yawn*

Two days of blissful moment.Awwwwwwww.

And today...boring!

When will i see u again?

New life new world?

2008-02-05T11:24:00.000+08:00

So i pass the interview and the agent said he's gonna do some reference check wateva dat means ah.

So i guess its time for a new world where im no longer be pampered and away from the comfort zone.

Best of luck to me.

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

2008-02-03T13:07:00.000+08:00

***You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy***

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch
Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.
From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.
And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?
http://www.blogthings.com/whydontyouhaveaboyfriendquiz/

This is it.

2008-01-31T16:33:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the hari penentuan.Whether i will be in or out.Hanya Allah saja tau.Pray tomorrow will go smoothly.Amin.

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Spend a lovely day wif the lovelies yesterday.After the movie,syam met us.Its been a while since dat mr oh so busy at werk met and hang out wif us.But now he's back wif his busy career.heh.We shld do it more often.Being the last standing dat is.hahahahaahha.

This is it.

2008-01-31T16:32:00.000+08:00

lust vs love?

2008-01-25T03:23:00.000+08:00

Women finds lust before love?

INteresting.

2008-01-14T07:09:00.000+08:00

I was juz googling on astrology and i came across this.

And wats so interesting is that its almost 100% true bout me!Freaky yes.Amused yes.

Libra

24th September to 23rd October

Symbol: The Balance
Ruling Planet: Venus
Quality: Cardinal
Element: Air
Basic Trait: I Balance
Closest Metal: Copper
Lucky Day: Friday
Lucky Colors: Pastel shades of Pink and Blue
Lucky Gems: Lapis Lazuli, Cornelian and Sapphire
Lucky Flowers: Daisies and Daffodils

Strengths	Weaknesses
Patient and balanced	Indecisive
Gregarious and sociable	May become careless
Loving and affectionate	Prone to indulgence
Cheerful and energetic	Emotional and sensitive

Libra, The Balance, is the seventh sign of the zodiac. The first and foremost personality trait you will notice about a Libran is his politeness. He loves people and hates to be rude to anyone. However, crowds do not attract him. A Libran is extremely good at solving a quarrel between two people quite amicably. On the other hand, he always enjoys having a good-natured argument himself. As per the Libra characteristic profile, the people born under this zodiac sign are usually very pleasant, cheerful and friendly.

One thing that ticks off a Libran is taking orders. You order him around and he will become the sulkiest person on this earth. As you try to give a typical description of the Libran personalities, you will find a number of inconsistencies in them. On one hand, Librans are very intelligent, on the other; they may be amazingly naive and susceptible. They talk too much, but are patient listeners too. They come across as restless, but seldom seem to be in a hurry. Confused? Don't worry; they are as confused about this contradictory behavior as you are.

A Libran will be composed, balanced, lovable, courteous and amiable half of the time. In the other half, he will be exasperating, irritable, inflexible, fidgety, unhappy and mystified. He is always tipping to one side or the other, till the perfect balance is achieved. Librans have a very captivating smile, which can easily melt your heart. Even their laughter rings with gaiety and seems to brighten up even the dullest of surroundings. They are very delightful when their mind in a balanced state. However, a Libra mind is prone to fickleness.

He is always weighing the pros and cons of a situation and finds it very difficult to form the perfect, balanced, opinion. He has this annoying habit of starting an argument just for the heck of it. You may have heard that Librans are lazy, but in this case also, there is a contradiction. They will keep on working for weeks, even months, at a time, managing on four-hours sleep everyday. Then, suddenly, they will feel completely exhausted and go into the laziness spell. Once this happens, it is impossible to even make them move a limb.

After sometime, a Libran will again be his energetic self and be out of the door even before you can say bye. However, it does not mean that he has a dual nature. It's just that he needs the lazy spell to regain his lost energy. As far as his emotions are concerned, he may become too sentimental one moment, turn sarcastic the other moment and become extremely cheerful in the very next. Again, it's not their dual personality, but a Libran's constant need to experience different emotion at different points of time.

Infact, his personality is a mix of kindheartedness, softness, equality, indecisiveness, theoretical logic and inability to take orders. He also loves to argument, especially when someone passes general statements. A Libran can take both the sides of an argument by turns, and win at both. Infact, he can even switch sides in the middle of the argument. However, behind all this argumentativeness is the constant urge to be fair and impartial, to look at both the sides of the coin, making him seem indecisive.

However, don't get impatient when a Libran is making up his mind. He hates impatience and it can make him extremely stubborn. He is very honest and does not like showing off. Librans love books and have the ability of concentrating and thinking over the deepest of subjects. They are very much impressed as well as influenced by the harmony of art forms. A Libran is artistic at heart and loves soft light, melodious music, intelligent conversation, good food and fine wines. He has a combination of intelligence, generosity, fairness and the need to be balanced.

She aint heavy she's my sister.

2008-01-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

Well..my sis shoutout in her friendster goes something like this,

"HEY SIS! IF YOU HATE ME THAT MUCH, WHY DON'T YOU JUST KILL ME AND THERE, YOU WONT HAVE A YOUNGER SIS. I'M SORRY I WAS BORN IN THIS WORLD AND MAKE YOUR LIFE DIFFICULT! I'M JUST SORRY!"

Now now now..im sorry for being the middle child.Im sorry that i have to werk hard to get mum and dad attention.Im sorry that every shit that u do i get all the scoldings from mum and dad.Im sorry that everything that u do mum juz closes one eye whereas i got all the shit from her.

Being the youngest u get away with almost everything.I have to werk hard to get anything i want.Betcha u didnt noe that i didnt get my bonus this yr becoz of my stupid warning letter from my stupid company.Becoz of that i pretend that everything is fine on my side.Even though i almost broke this mth becoz i pretended that i got my bonus and have to use my pay to give mum and dad extra money.

And all u said its better to kill u and i wont have a younger sister.if i wanted to kill you,i would have done it long time ago before u decided to be a bitch now.

On my off days, i helped mum cleaned up the house and mum didnt least appreaciated wat i do.And what did u do??NOTHING!U woke up late,watched tv and when the time is up,u went out and meet your friends and came back late at night.All i get shit from mum becoz i always BERKIRA in doing housewerk.U did nothing but she didnt say anything.How does that make me feel??You took my stuffs without my permission and u tink i kicked a big fuss becoz im being petty??All this while uve been taking and using my stuffs,im being a nice bitch by not saying anything.Once,twice ..i can still take it but taking it like u owned the stuff all the time,dats major bullshit!!Nobody can take it.

I rather be in my room than seein your face coz i feel smacking your face everytime i see u.Being rude to mum and dad and taking my stuffs,dats enuff for me to see and hear.I rather not knowing any shit bout you coz u seems capable looking after yourself.U tink you're old enuff earning your own money and what's dat dream you're talking bout wif your friends bout living together and party,Riding bike blah blah blah.

Turning 18 this yr is a big deal to u coz .

1)ure a legal age to smoke and drink.
2)you can go clubbing with your older friends like yeayness.

Congrats!!U're old enuff to do all those things.

And me..im juz your one big fat loser sister who never do those things when she turned 18.And wat did i do on my 18th bday??Oh yeahhh..i got my hair dyedAnd now that pretty impressive!

030108

2008-01-03T09:56:00.000+08:00

Time check : 1500 hrs.

Im all done wif my werk.In other words,tgh freeee GILERRRRR.and i have 2 1/2 hrs to go before i can go home.Boo hooo!!

020108

2008-01-02T08:24:00.000+08:00

2007 has come and go and here we are welcoming 2008 wif open arms.Hopefully 2008 will be a better yr for everyone.

2007 also serves fond memories of LAX for me and my friends.Because of the trip,our friendship becomes much stronger and we tolerate wif each others nonsense.

2008 marked 14 yrs of friendship for us namely zarina,lizah,fauziah as ive known them since we were in seconday 1 and we still keep in touch till now.Also 19 yrs of friendship with kak nurul.Thank you ppl for your wonderful friendship and loving that keeps me grounded.Even tho im a kepala angin..hahaa..thank you for tolerating all this yrs.

And here to 2008 with much love and hope..that this yr will be a better yr for me.

010108

2008-01-01T17:00:00.000+08:00

First entry for 2008.

Wishing all a very happy new yr!!

im having writer's block.so till then..

adios!

happy thoughts

2007-12-19T14:46:00.000+08:00

Some things happen for a reason.

While others r happy now...i guess i haf to wait till end of the mth to be happy.

Well..i guess not.

White light.

2007-12-10T13:23:00.000+08:00

Things happened when ure least expected but im glad there's a second chance.

I will be devasted if anything shld happened to u.You're my light,my life and my everything.

Thank you Allah for protecting my nenek.

Im an artist?

2007-12-07T09:40:00.000+08:00

Saw kak nan doin it in her blog and so im curious to noe wat my stars say about me.

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quizzes

Im an artist??

2007-12-07T04:40:00.000+08:00

Saw kak nan doin it in her blog and so im curious wat my stars say bout me.

Sooo..here goes..

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Lets101 Quizzes - Quizzes'>http://www.lets101.com/blog/quizzes">Quizzes For Fun

Headlines.

2007-12-02T17:59:00.000+08:00

3 wks of blissful life..no need waking up early for werk..and then boom!

Tomorrow im goin back to werk.walau weiiiiiiiii!!!!

Can i juz stay at home and not werk??but i need money.ANd in order to haf money,i need to werk.hahahaha..

Coz we already plan for our next trip.hahaha..

So yeah...werk i come tomorrow.whoo pee doo!

back home.

2007-11-24T05:57:00.000+08:00

Reached Spore safe and sound on the 24th nov @1215am.Awaken by lizah's sms ard 630am..and couldnt sleep again and so i upload the pics to my laptop.hahaha..Later gotta go and rewang for my cousin's wedding.and ohh..i got to eat my 1st nasi goreng of the wk after 2 wks of eggs,bread,burgers,fries,maggi mee,chicken curry in a tin and rendang in a tin.I didnt noe that rice is gd.hhahahaha.Thanks to my nenek who cooked the nasi goreng.And airplane food sucks!

Goin back home.

2007-11-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

The day i dreaded most has come.We are all goin home tomorrow.1100am flt tomorrow and reachin lion city on the 24th midnight.

And today is gonna be R & R for us.Packing and hangin out at the hotel.

Goin to a happy place!

2007-11-19T01:27:00.000+08:00

Date : 18 Nov 2007 (Sunday)

Time : 1420 hrs (US time)

We already reached anaheim.Now waitin for our room to be ready.Another 4 more days b4 i bid adieu this place.

We all having a great fun!shopping is the ultimate!god noes how much we all have spent and lets juz say that we r not bringin back 1 luggage.muahahahaha...

I love shopping at LA!!!!!!!!!!!!And ohh...i tink our malay are getting better in the city of angels.hahahahaha

bidding adieu

2007-11-09T01:27:00.000+08:00

Bidding adieu to the lion city and saying my hello to the city of angels.

Time check : 0630am.

Boarding the plane soon.

Goodbye!yohaaa!!

betcha betcha betcha.

2007-11-07T11:04:00.000+08:00

Today is my last day of werk.yohaaa! Will be back to werk only on the 3rd December 2007 which happens to be my bro's bday. Long live my LONGGGGG leave! hahahahahahahahahah.

one more wk!

2007-11-02T04:07:00.000+08:00

one more wk to go!!

walau wei!!!

*breathe in and out*

ok go.

Black Eyed Peas!!!

2007-10-23T04:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was fun!!Black eyed peas rocked indoor stadium last night.Me and Pau reached Indoor stadium ard 7pm.We went in and got ourselves comfortable and wait for the opening act Click Five to perform.As true to the meanin of STAR KARAT,Click Five opened the show at 8pm.haaahha.Sadly to say,i only noe two songs out of how many songs they sang.hahahaha.

BEP came on at 9pm and the show ended almost 11pm.As usual,BEP performance was not disappointed.Im glad Pau and Nurul enjoyed the show.hehehehe.That was my 3rd BEP concert.U will never get bored with BEP songs.Fergie performs songs from her Duchess album.The crowd went wild!She sang 'BIG GIRLS DONT CRY',LONDON BRIDGE,FERGALICIOUS & GLAMOROUS'.And Will.I.Am sang his single," I GOT IT FROM MAMA".It was awesome.

Best best!!I gotta clean up my table.Some idiot spill coffee and now the place reeks of coffee.and of coz "the dearly beloved "was on mc yesterday and today.

People.

2007-10-20T08:08:00.000+08:00

Have you ever met someone who is so full of him/herself?Who thinks dat he/she always right in his/her own way?

Oh well..i have.and best part im seeing her everyday but of coz when she's on URGENT leave or MC,i feel so peaceful and able to do things at my own pace.With her ard,mana aku nak dgr dia mengumpat kat telephone.mana nak dgr dia nye life story zaman muda2 dulu yg menurut dia,ramai lelaki nak kenal2 dgn dia.Kepala aku jadi sakit dgr citer2 lama yg kalau tak salah ah..dia asyik repeat jer dari aku start keje 6 tahun yg lepas sampai lah dia dah ader anak 2.

So best thing to do..angkat kaki gi merayap kat warehouse lagi bagus.Berbual dgn wak guard lagi bagus.

Anyways,hari mon seperti biasa,dia akan mengambil URGENT leave pasal over the wkend dia buat open house.Dia tak apply leave in advance.suka amik urgent leave on mon.Paling suka skali org mcm gini.Keje menyusah kan org.Bagus bagus.Amalkan selalu.

Coz wat goes ard comes ard.Tu lah..dulu asyik ckp pasal ex staff dia.Skrg dia buat keje yg sama but diri sendiri tak tau cermin nak ckp org.Susah eh org mcm gini.Ckp mcm real.When i told her to get temp staff during my 3 wks absence,berbual world.Ckp bole handle.buat aper nak amik temp staff.Few wks back,she told me she wanna ask my manager for temp staff coz she cant handle alone.tsk tsk tsk.

Friends Forever.

2007-10-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

Vitamin C
Graduation

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

1 - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat 1

La, la, la, la…
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la…
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Repeat 1 (3x)

3rd Syawal.

2007-10-15T09:28:00.000+08:00

Rumour has it that im quiting my job.Oh wow!!and i didnt even noe bout dat.

And someone at werk was spreading it.In the 1st plc,i didnt say anything bout quiting my job. ader org memandai2 jer buat citer.When my cousin asked me bout it,i was taken aback.i was like wth?!

And i tot women r capable doing dat.Tak ku sangka,lelaki pun tau buat mulut jugak.Ishk ishk.Pandai eh dia.Bole baca kepala otak org.Can see thru wats in the head.

And to tink that werkin in all female environment,it will be nasty but werkin in all MALE environment is even nastier!

Eve of Syawal.

2007-10-12T03:43:00.000+08:00

Time check : 735am.

And im already at werk!hahahaha..Friends who noes me will noe that i reached werk either 5 mins b4 my official time or 5 mins after.heh.So today..im super duper early.*sings*There can be miracle..if u believe*hahahahah.

TOday is the eve of Syawal.3 more wks to freedom!yohaaa!!Me and my friends are excited for our freedom.As per wat Em said,"aku tak rasa bahang hari raya,aku rasa bahang trip kita".hahahahahahaha.Ditto to u dude!

Saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat HAri raya Maaf Zahir & batin kepada semua.

Have a great raya this yr yall!

URgent leave?!

2007-10-03T06:31:00.000+08:00

REmember i wrote bout a certain someone who took urgent leave on monday?

I tot its something urgent or important that she has to take urgent leave on a Monday.Turned out the urgency was goin to geylang to buy clothes for her kids.

WAh...like dat i also can do dat wat...msg her in the morning...tell her im taking urgent leave and off i go shopping.can wat...If my superior can do dat..why cant i??living by example perrrr...betul tak??

And if my upper management question me...i can juz say dat.My superior took urgent leave because she NEED to get her kids clothes on MOnday but not any other day Coz MON is the best time to buy clothes for her kids.

Im so sick and tired with this kind of ppl...basically they are testing my patience.There's a limit to everything.Im juz waiting for the right time to drop the bombshell.

And if im given a sack,im gladly accept it.At least i dont haf to hand in my resignation letter.Away Away from all the idiots at werk!!!sheeeshhh!

another yr older?

2007-10-01T09:00:00.000+08:00

Im officially 26 yrs old today.Where the kids in Singapore celebrating children's day,i celebrated my 26th bday.I wished im back in primary sch coz apparently kindergarten and primary sch are closed today.heh.But noooo..i haf to werk and plus receiving a very "delightful" sms from my "very beloved" supervisor that she's taking urgent leave.I dont noe how urgent is her leave is..coz if dats very urgent,shldnt she be in the toilet taking the leak?!

Oh well...its my bday.*take a deep breathe*.No point gettin frustrated wif idiotic ppl like her.Im juz lookin forward for Nov.Say helloooo long long leave......

So yeah..Happy birthday Noor Hasrinawati Bte Othman.U have another 4 more years to go before the BIG 3-0 hit ya.Enjoy enjoy!hahahahahahaha

ROW 2007.

2007-09-30T07:15:00.000+08:00

I had the opportunity yesterday to be part of Ramadhan on Wheels or ROW for short.Organised by 4PM,we send the provision goods to the needy.In total,me and my team mates went 5 houses.One in Hougang and the rests were at the east side.hahhaa.

Actually i was scared driving to Hougang coz yours truly is a rd idiot and plus its been a while ive been driving.Blame it on the "M" sickness.muahahahaa..But alhamdullillah,everything turned out fine.Though there's a few times where the engine stalled because yours truly let go of the clutch too soon and also the parking.walauuuuu!!But in all,everything was greeaaattt!

And its definately open up my eyes.The first hse we went to was at Chai Chee.1 room flat.4 ppl staying in dat hse.Its pretty cramped.And i was ashamed coz i always complaining on how broke am i and there's others who actually dont have the money to send their kids to school or even buy their kids clothes for the festive season.

And also i had the chance of breaking fast with the rest of volunteers of 4PM at this makcik hse.Even tho she's not well to do,she's still treat us well.A lot of food tho.hahahaha.But when tired plus thirsty,u dont really eat much tho.hahahahaah.

It was a nice experience.Somehow,i felt different.In a gd way.Insya allah,i will join it again next yr.

13th ramadan

2007-09-25T18:06:00.000+08:00

well well...its been too long since it came.and finally..its here.

Man..i feel like a woman!

11th Ramadan

2007-09-23T08:32:00.000+08:00

Almost end of sept.I cant wait for november!!

yeah yeah..i noe.Im supposed to be excited for oct coz its my bday and bday is supposed to be exciting coz ure turnin a yr older but eerrgghhh..not this time.coz turning 26 is not dat cool.:(

I seriously cant wait for november and its time to let loose and be happy and leave behind everything here in Spore.yohaaa!!

And yeah..im missing my friends at the OC and james lafferty.boo hooo!

The new season of One tree hill will be shown next yr Jan.

black friday.

2007-09-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

Today is today.Things i dreaded most came true.

God noes how i feel when the news being break to me.

I swear i was shaking and my face actually turned red coz i can feel the heatness.It was really a tense moment.

Crying was almost an issue but i suck it in and try to face the world.

Thank you for the 2nd chance.

8th Ramadan

2007-09-20T17:30:00.000+08:00

Someone will be celebrating her bday in 9 days.Actually 3 persons whose bday falls on the same day.

Counting down...

back to werk!

2007-09-13T08:39:00.000+08:00

After a wk of absence from werk,finally back to werk on mon.Something im not so lookin forward.hahaha..

A wk of Ellen Degeneres show,a wk of music videos,a wk of E channel,lets juz say dat i spent my days watching tv.Thanks to the sore eyes.

1st day of Ramadhan.

Selamat Berpuasa!

sore eyes.

2007-08-30T16:52:00.000+08:00

i didnt noe having a sore eyes can be a bitch.

i barely can open my eyes.its watery and there's a discharge like taik mata gitu.

If i didnt wipe away..the thiing will stick to the eyes and haf difficulty gettin my eyes open.

aiyohh..and it didnt help wif the running nose and headache.

and i haf one more day to rest!

Collage.

2007-08-29T16:15:00.000+08:00

Juz my fav ppl and obsession.

middle child.

2007-08-22T10:25:00.000+08:00

I noe i haf blogged about the Middle Child Syndrome or MCS in short before.

But lately,ive been thinking.I evaluate myself.i asked myself why do i feel dat i dont belong in the family or rather ive been askin dat qns all my life.Mum and dad acted like they dont care bout me.Priority will always be given to the eldest and the youngest.Growing up,i always thought im the weird one in the family.The inability of expressing my sadness or madness to mum is always hard.when im sad,i juz locked myself in the room and cry and when im mad,i juz slammed the door hard and blast the music loud.That's the way i express myself.

Anyways,i was checking out the MCS again and found something which i totally can relate to.

"Ok well i know reading others stories and comparing in to my own helps me feel better. So i think sharing some of my views on MCS might help me and hopefully some other poor person who feels the same way i do.

It is true before i saw the doc on tv about it...i did not think this middle child syndrome thing was real. Then as soon as i saw it like usual things in my life i was happy to compare and see that i was not mad and it is real and maybe thats why i feel this way!.

Everyone has a different story really...we all have a different family etc. Still i get annoyed when oldest and youngest children comment on MCS being 'BS' since the way i feel i always feel that if you are not middle child then you would not understand what its like.

Im 18 and my older sister is in her 20's (i do not even like to call her sister). My brother is like 12 so he is younger, and teh brat of the family of course.

At first growing up i did not even feel i was a middle child untill after my brother was older and i did not need to take care of him so much (i always helped out not my sister).

Even though i get along with my brother sometimes, he is so rude and a complete brat! he is rude to my parents and they sit back and take it. Yet when i was younger i did not get to be like that, not that i would. I just became snappy and got in bad moods all the time.

I hate my sister above all, my parents always told me i would grow out of it but that is not true. I would not say she was better than me i do not feel she is although she was more popular at school has more friends etc. I liked being my own person, although i was always the wierd shy one out.

I hated her for always complaining that i get spoilt more than her! when its so clear my parents always listen to her before me!. They will always encourage her and listen to her life details, i never feel like i get asked enough about how i feel and how i am.

I know i could be better at subjects but i just lost interest in doing well over time, there for failed more and my self esteem hit a lower turn. Everything i did i have tried to do better than the oldest, i always want to be better than her so my parents would look at me and see that im smart and what not.

Or i think it is because i want the attention...im not a drinking, party person at all like some of my friends and it makes me feel left out since i wish i could be more open. I did turn to smoking, drinking,...even cutting once when all my bottled up hurt and emotions came rushing out and crying does not help anymore. But i get a grip of myself and tell myself to do better and not to fall into the middle child bad side.

To cut the story short i just think for all those parents who want to know what the problem is:

Look at the situation! middle child for me always feels 'piggy in the middle'. Like there is no place for middle since 'oldest' sounds good and 'youngest' sounds great but 'middle' does not sound so nice. We hate it if we cannot fit in as oldest since that spot is taken and even more so that we cannot get away for youngest! since that spot is also taken...so what can we do to fit in?.

I started to blame all my problems on being middle and tell my mum 'if i was not middle i would not be having this!' sometimes it did feel like an excuse. but my parents always brush it off! my mother is teh worst she says im an attention seeker and that me and my friends made up this whole middle child thing!!!! ><

that is when a parent is bad when they do not acknowledge their mistakes or even listen to the child. I do not like hugging, or kissing and find it weird when my friends family want to welcome me like that..since i was not used to it in my own family. I have always looked after myself where as my sister depends on my parents like mad.

My brother for being a brat is pretty smart although he is a bit of a trouble maker, he is the fav and my parents adore him for being the only boy. This is why i sometimes blame him when im angry and get the blame for what he does since i think if he was not born i would of got the attention i deserve and not be bullied so much by the oldest and youngest.

Since both brother and sister get along since they have more in common. I think middle children will find they

1) are creative! in most of the fields like art, music, dance etc and have great ideas

2) bottle up feelings feel uncomfortable talking about things with ppl, feel insecure

3) always have your few friends you keep close who you feel make up for your family since they do not give you enough attention at home

4) independent look after your self kind of atitude and are not afraid to be different and are happy for it.

the list could go on..... the plus side is i will not be afraid to leave hom like my other siblings. I have always wanted to get out i feel like i am sometimes in a prison i just want freedom and to do well abd be myself with out feeling 2nd or 3rd best.

Also it helps hearing about all those famous ppl who were middle children, so we see we can do well in life!! we just have to get away and be happy with our selves then it will not affect you again.

It has had an affect on the way i am i know, like for one i do not want lets say 3 children or something because i never want one to be in the middle like i was! i guess being middle has made me think of others first all the time. If i has a middle child i think it would be unfair because i am more likely to spoil them more to make up for what i did not get in my years growing up.

yet we do not always turn out like our parents, if anything i have learnt to be nothing like them. I do not look like them, i do not act lik my siblings that is sometimes the problem because i am different they think its strange they just do not understand.

Remember if you have a middle child they will always feel different from your other kids, and sensitive to you picking sides or doing something for one and not the other.

ups and downs for middle children for all the downs we get remember we will be more happy to learn and find our selves.

Posted by: Jolin | January 05, 2007 at 05:51 PM "

My elder bro is 28.As far as i can remember,he's the one with a lots of friends.Someone popular.Someone wif girls fall on his feet.But he's married with one kid and i must say he's still the same as he was b4.

My younger sis is 17.Like my brother,she too has a lot of friends.Someone popular.Someone wif guys fall on his feet.

For me,i grew up unable to relate and connect to ppl.i had a really small group of close friends and avoided social gatherings.And time passed,i became an introvert n listening songs in my own company.

I rememebered when i was younger,i hid under the bed for god noes how long.I tot no one will miss me if im gone.I eventually fell asleep under the bed.My bro found me under the bed and if im not wrong,i got a earful from mum for doin dat kind of stunt.

I totally agree with Jolin on this.

middle children will find they

1) are creative! in most of the fields like art, music, dance etc and have great ideas ->i agree wif that.

2) bottle up feelings feel uncomfortable talking about things with ppl, feel insecure-> totally true.I always bottle up my feelings.

3) always have your few friends you keep close who you feel make up for your family since they do not give you enough attention at home ->100% true!!!i spent most of times wif frenz instead of my family.And at home,i will lock myself in the room and basically blast the music.

4) independent look after your self kind of atitude and are not afraid to be different and are happy for it. ->i agree wif that.I rarely call home when i go travelling wif my friends.hahahah.Its like im on my own n i haf no family kind of feeling.

But of coz,when mum shows her concerned,i will get all emotionally chocked up and realised that mum do care but its for dat time of the day.Its not everyday kind of thing.

Growing up,i never had my mum tellin me she love me but of coz stuffs dat she did do shows she love and care for me.Little things like pulling up blanket for u.

I guess being a middle child haf its own pros and cons.love it or hate it.

In the end,i quote from Jolin "ups and downs for middle children for all the downs we get remember we will be more happy to learn and find our selves."

Cheers to all the middle child!

juz a random thought

2007-08-15T16:06:00.000+08:00

Oh well...one cousin's wedding down.one more to go in Nov.And ppl will start askin me when is my turn when is my turn?*roll eyes*

I will be 26 this oct and for dat age..it considered rightable(got such a word meh) age to get married.According to old folks myth ah,if u get married like later than 25/26..considered andartu eh.then kirakan dah tak laku sgt.Got such a thing meh?i thought ajal maut di tangan Tuhan.Kalau jodoh kita dtg lambat,wat can we do?We still kahwin per.Wats the point of puttin pressure on youself as in setting the age you wanna get married,and the age u wanna haf kids?When things that u plan didnt fall thru,u will ended up feeling disappointed.Tak pasal2 high blood naik.hahahaha.

My cousin will be 25 this sat.And like me,she takes things slow.She's only 25 and has juz started her career as a teacher n my nenek started askin her when is she gettin married becoz she has a bf lah..dats y my nenek prefer her to settle down than go galivanting wif the bf.hahahahaa.

And my grandfather asked me to find a bf.hahahaha..When he told me dat,i was like...wahh...cari bf mcm nak cari ikan kat pasar eh??So easy??hahahaha.Werking in all male environment makes me wary of guys a bit.And somemore werkin at cargo complex where the word SCANDAL is often heard.Ive seen and i dont trust the guys here..Oh yeah.baik jantan and betina.Dua2 dah kahwin still can have scandal.I pity their kids.Ishk.

I will get married when i tink im ready hahahaha.But 1st haf to find bf first lah...takkan nak kahwin dgn tiang kan.hahahahaha.So meanwhile,let me enjoy my singlehood and freedom.Cheers to the singles!*wink*

random thoughts

2007-08-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

Happy 42nd bday Singapore!

Better late than never ya noe?heheeh.

How am i?

Doin great.Apart of having a selfish colleague at werk..im doin fine.

Time spent wif gd friends.Speaking of which,i went to NDP.Tickets courtesy of Haida and Radin.hehe

Last min thingy tho.Received call from Haida on dat thursday morning askin me if im interested coz she has 2 spare tickets.Apparently her aunt and her cousin couldnt make it last min.So instead of wasting that 2 tickets,she asked me and zarina along.So we went together wif her and husband and two of her other cousins.Bob and adik.

Dat was my virgin NDP.I never been to the parade b4.hahaha..The closest i get was watching the firewerks from my aunt's plc.Coz she's stayin in dakota cresent and it was near to the National stadium.So every yr i will be at her plc watching the firewerks.

A mth before the fasting mth and three more mths before i bid adieu to Singapore.yohaaa!!

So till then..Have a great day!

its done!!!

2007-08-03T13:57:00.000+08:00

Everything is settle.

Date r confirmed.

I cant wait for Nov.The day ive been waiting for.

3 more mths!

Yikes!!

Late

2007-07-26T08:45:00.000+08:00

Ive been coming to werk late these past wks.Heh.

Maybe i shld go up to my manager and ask to change my werk timing.hahaha.Instead of starting at 0800am,maybe i can start at 0830am.This way,there's not need for my pay to cut when im late for 10 mins.Time grace given 5 mins.If later than 0805am,meanin 1/2 hrs pay being cut.So its better late than ever.heh.

Wkend was spent at my uncle's place coz my cousin gotten married.It was a grand affair and i took mighty lots of pics!And as usual,as u all noe that im werkin wif another cousin of mine.She's my superior and oh well..she took urgent unpaid leave on Monday.Yeah..like thanks a lot.i guess you're the only one helping out.I juz snapped photos only.*eyes rolling*

Ppl ard me started gettin on my nerves.I wish i can juz say back off!Give me some space.But i cant say dat.

Oh well..

OC

2007-07-16T10:38:00.000+08:00

I missed my friends ya noe.

They were the ones who lights up my nights with their funny antics.And now,they are gone for gd.Its pretty sucky that the show lasted for 4 seasons.All gd things come to an end.boo hooo!!

And so i spent some of my wknights and wkend watchin the season 4.I was having a gd time watchin it.

I didnt realised how much i missed them when i watched the show.I forgot how funny Seth was and how hot Ryan is.Give me dat hot bod anytime!boo yahh!How sarcastic Summer can be and how smart Taylor can be.u noe u noe?

Oh well..maybe the next time the theme song of The OC comes along..i hope to be the one singin "California,here we come" when i get the chance to step into LAX airport or rather be at Newport Beach,OC.MAybe someday. :)

No harm in dreaming tho.*wink*

update.

2007-07-05T12:01:00.000+08:00

Last fri,i was on leave and so do the rest of my friends.

Pau and me were on leave while zarina and nurul took half day.

And so we decided to go to JB.Juz a getaway from the stress world of Singapore.heh.

We eat,we laughed,and we caught a movie.A rather basi show.Fantastic Four,the rise of silver surfer.hahahaha.For RM 10,yeah..i tink its worth it.heh.

It was fun hangin out wif the ladies.maybe we shld do it more often.ehh..wait.four more mths to go ladies.yohaaa!

Rehab

2007-06-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

Saturday was spent wif the lovelies.

All feelin tai tai.Went for high tea at carousel.:)

The food was great.The company were excellent.

Theres cute guys ard..ooppss...salah salah..wrong plc ah..heh.

Ohhhh...mr gorgeous in stripes polo T.*mentel mode on*

Anyways,im hooked to Amy Winehouse-Rehab.

jaded

2007-06-21T16:17:00.001+08:00

I was reading thru my past archives and all i blogged about was bout the OC and friends that im close with.

This is supposed to be an emo entry but ive deleted of the contents.Its juz not me to be typing emo shit in my blog.hahaha.

So let us all think of a happy plc and be happy.Speaking of which,im done downloading the entire season 4 of One Tree hill.Yohaaaa!

But ive yet to watch the season finale!and also im glad that OTH is goin for season 5.yes!!my james lafferty will be ard for a long time.

hmm..maybe i shld start blogging bout OTH.heheheeh.

So this sat will be all girls/tai tai day out.hopefully it will be a fun day.

Juz a random entry

2007-06-04T16:59:00.000+08:00

5 more mths and counting.

Gosh!!i cant wait.*do a happy dance*

Tomorrow we will be celebratin rena's advance bday.At Fish n Co no less.And on the 23rd will be the all girls outing.Yoo haaa!!

Anyhooos..Happy bday Rena in advance!Hope u will haf fun tomorrow!